Ssince I have been depressed I have found it difficult to make decisions. I tend to veer from one decision to another without being able to stick with one until such a time as I feel so overwhelmed that I can't make the right decision.
I have been thinking about going to university next year. I never went first time round, deciding instead to study journalism at college, and have often wondered whether I should have. The trouble is, I want a job, and ideally a career, that will fulfill me. Yes I want to be a writer eventually, but I am realistic enough to know that many published authors have to work in another job too.
A lot of the jobs I like the look of tend to want graduates. If I go to uni I will be able to learn the skills that employers want and have a better chance of getting a job I am likely to enjoy. In theory, this should then help me to feel happier with my life. If it doesn't work out, then well, fine. That's thw way life goes. I am still young, and that is something I have neglected to understand so far. I have always felt in a rush and that I need to be settled in a certain career and married with kids by a particular time. If I do go to uni next year I'll be 28 when I start, which means I will be a couple months shy of 31 by the time I graduate in 2016. With the retirement age for men currently at 65 and set to rise in the coming decades I'll probably still have 40 odd years of working life left!!
I need to accept that what has happened has happened, I am still young and that it is time to start doing the things I want to do rather than what I think people think I should do.
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